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Ordinary Time by Dale Brown

06.16.09

On the Church Calendar the “season” we find ourselves in is “Ordinary Time.”  When I was first introduced to the Church Calendar I went through the seasons of Advent, Christmas, Epiphany, Lent, Easter, and then I ran into the long season of Ordinary Time.  It is easy from the name of the season to assume that the first part of the year is about Jesus (his birth, death, and resurrection) and the second half is about getting on with our “ordinary” lives.  This is what I thought the term “ordinary” meant and I thought it strange that the year would end in such a way.  However, the name ordinary here does not mean “common” or “mundane,” but rather “counted.”  Ordinary comes from the word ordinal which by definition means to number.  Thus, this season is the time that we count from Pentecost to Advent.

The question then is what are we suppose to be doing during this time?   Feasts and fasts marked all of the other seasons, but what are we to do now?  The answer lies in the fact that we count “from Pentecost.”  The first half of the Church year focuses on the life of Christ, thus we celebrate his birth, life, death, resurrection and ascension. The second half of the year focuses on us living out the Life of Christ in our lives.  Between those two halves lies the Feast of Pentecost. This is the time that the Church celebrates the coming of the Holy Spirit, and it is the Holy Spirit who makes it possible to live out the life of Christ.  So the Feast of Pentecost is the bridge between the first half of the Calendar (the Life of Christ) and the second half of the Calendar (ordinary time).  It is the time that the Church calls us not to simply celebrate the Mysteries of Christ’s life but embody them in our everyday lives.  This time is not marked by an absence of Christ, but an infusion of Christ’s life in the here and now.  Thus, we count each day as “such and such day after Pentecost,” remembering that the coming of the Spirit was not for mere emotionalism, but for the empowerment to be the hands and feet of Jesus here and now for those around us.  The Church Calendar from start to finish is about Christ: Christ with us…Christ in us.

Summer and Sabbath by Jason Campbell

05.26.09

Remember that feeling you had when the school year was rolling to a close ... that last week of school when you did nothing but wait, excitedly, for freedom. That feeling isn't to far from the biblical meaning behind the Sabbath commandments. God gives two reasons for Sabbath: 1) God rested on the seventh day ... we should follow his lead and rest; 2) You were once slaves in Egypt, slaves who worked without rest ... don't ever do that again to yourselves or anyone else. Eugene Peterson says this leads us to understand Sabbath as a call to praying and playing (contemplation of the rest of God and social leisure).

So we decided when we really got small groups organized and running that the leaders would have a rest season built into their year. We also turn to some new things in the summer ... since most of us don't get to flee into the wild woods of summer anymore, we still want to focus on contemplation and social leisure. We will be doing that this summer through softball at Nickajack, discussion groups around the city, mid-week prayer services and picnics.

One last story about holidays in our country. Holidays comes from Holy Days and so is about feasts and fasts, playing and praying. There is a holiday that began in Texas called Juneteenth. On June 19th 1865 news of the Emancipation Proclamation reached Texas (the proclamation was made two-and-a-half years earlier). From that moment on, African Americans in Texas regarded June 19th as a holiday and refused to show up for work. It is still a day celebrated ... a day to remember freedom from slavery. Juneteenth is coming up.

Easter by Jason Campbell

04.12.09

Rejoice now, heavenly hosts and choirs of angels,
and let your trumpets shout Salvation
for the victory of our mighty King.

Rejoice and sing now, all the round earth,
bright with a glorious splendor,
for darkness has been vanquished by our eternal King.

Rejoice and be glad now, Mother Church,
and let your holy courts, in radiant light,
resound with the praises of your people.

All you who stand near this marvelous and holy flame,
pray with me to God the Almighty
for the grace to sing the worthy praise of this great light;
through Jesus Christ his Son our Lord,
who lives and reigns with him,
in the unity of the Holy Spirit,
one God, for ever and ever.  Amen.

This is the night, when you brought our fathers, the children
of Israel, out of bondage in Egypt, and led them through the
Red Sea on dry land.

This is the night, when all who believe in Christ are delivered
from the gloom of sin, and are restored to grace and holiness
of life.

This is the night, when Christ broke the bonds of death and hell,
and rose victorious from the grave.

Holy Father, accept our evening sacrifice, the offering of this
candle in your honor.  May it shine continually to drive away
all darkness. May Christ, the Morning Star who knows no
setting, find it ever burning—he who gives his light to all
creation, and who lives and reigns for ever and ever.  Amen.
From the Book of Common Prayer. P. 286-287

Truly the eye of the Lord is on those who fear him,
on those who hope in his steadfast love,
to deliver their soul from death
and to keep them alive in famine.

Our soul waits for the Lord;
he is our help and our shield.
Our heart is glad in him,
because we trust in his holy name.
Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us,
even as we hope in you.
Psalm 33

The Lord will fight for you,
and you have only to keep still.
Exodus 14

I will take you from the nations, and gather you from all the countries,
and bring you back into your own land. I will sprinkle clean water upon you,
and you shall be clean from all your uncleanness, and from all your idols
I will cleanse you. A new heart I will give you, and a new spirit I will put within you;
and I will remove from your body the heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
I will put my spirit within you, and make you follow my statutes and be careful to
observe my ordinances. Then you shall live in the land that I gave to your ancestors;
and you shall be my people, and I will be your God.
Ezekiel 36

O dry bones, hear the word of the Lord. Thus says the Lord God to these bones:
I will cause breath to enter you, and you shall live. I will lay sinews on you, and
cause flesh to come upon you, and cover you with skin, and put breath in you, and
you shall live; and you shall know that I am the Lord ...

These bones ... They say, "Our bones are dried up, and our hope is lost;
we are cut off completely."  Therefore prophesy and say to them, Thus says
the Lord God: I am going to open your graves, O my people; and I will bring
you back ... And you shall know that I am the Lord, when I open your graves,
and bring you up from your graves, O my people. I will put my spirit within you,
and you shall live ...
Ezekiel 37

The Lord, your God, is in your midst,
a warrior who gives victory;
he will rejoice over you in his love;
he will exult over you with loud singing
as on a day of festival.
I will remove disaster from you,
so that you will not bear reproach for it.
I will save the lame and gather the outcast,
and I will change their shame into praise
and renown in all the earth.
At that time I will bring you home,
at that time when I gather you;
for I will make you renowned and praised
among all the peoples of the earth,
when I restore your fortunes before your eyes,
says the Lord.
Zephaniah 3         

After the Sabbath, as the first day of the week was dawning,
Mary Magdalene and the other Mary went to see the tomb.
And suddenly there was a great earthquake; for an angel of
the Lord, descending from heaven, came and rolled back the
stone and sat on it. His appearance was like lightning and his
clothing white as snow. For fear of him the guards shook and
became like dead men. But the angel said to the women, "Do
not be afraid; I know that you are looking for Jesus who was
crucified. He is not here; for he has been raised, as he said.
Cone, see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his
disciples, 'He has been raised from the dead, and indeed he is
going ahead of you to Galilee; there you will see him.' This is my
message for you." So they left the tomb quickly with fear and great
joy, and ran to tell his disciples ...

When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. And
Jesus came and said to them:
All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.
Go, therefore, and make disciples of all nations,
baptizing them in the name
of the Father
of the Son
and of the Holy Spirit,
and teaching them to obey everything that I have commanded you.
And remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.
Matthew 28

Heavenly Father, we thank you that by water and the Holy
Spirit you have bestowed upon us, your servants the
forgiveness of sin and have raised us to the new life of
grace. Strengthen us, O Lord, with your presence, enfold
us in the arms of your mercy, and keep us safe for ever.

Almighty God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from
whom every family in heaven and earth is named, grant you
to be strengthened with might by his Holy Spirit, that, Christ
dwelling in your hearts by faith, you may be filled with all the
fullness of God. Amen.

Holy Saturday by Jason Campbell

04.11.09

The seed is in the ground.
Now may we rest in hope
While the darkness does its work.
(Wendell Berry. A Timbered Choir: The Sabbath Poems 1979-1997. 1998)

O God, Creator of heaven and earth: Grant that, as the
crucified body of your dear Son was laid in the tomb and
rested on this holy Sabbath, so we may await with him the
coming of the third day, and rise with him to newness of
life; who now lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit,
one God, for ever and ever. Amen.

These are the readings for Holy Saturday service.

Old Testament Job 14:1-14
Psalm 130, or 31:1-5
Epistle 1 Peter 4:1-8
Gospel Matthew 27:57-66, or John 19:38-42

Good Friday by Jason Campbell

04.10.09

The text for Good Friday is always John 18-19. Jesus makes clear throughout John's gospel that the cross is the hour which he will be glorified. Eugene Peterson writes about how difficult that is for us to get our heads around.

"Jesus takes the brightest word in our vocabularies and plunges it into the darkest pit of experience, violent and excruciating death. Everything we ever associated with glory has to be recast: We have entered a mystery. ... But not a total mystery. Every gardener knows something of this: each spring we bury seeds in our gardens and in a few weeks enjoy the bloom of flowers and the nourishment of vegetables."
Eugene Peterson. Christ Plays in Ten Thousand Places.

A dread and marvelous mystery we see come to pass this day. He whom none may touch is seized; He who looses Adam from the curse is bound. He who tries the hearts and inner thoughts of man is unjustly brought to trial. He who closed the abyss is shut in prison. He before whom the powers of heaven stand with trembling, stands before Pilate; the Creator is struck by the hand of His creature. He who comes to judge the living and the dead is condemned to the Cross; the Destroyer of hell is enclosed in a tomb. O Thou who dost endure all these things in Thy tender love, who hast saved all men from the curse, O long-suffering Lord, glory to Thee.

Maundy Thursday by Jason Campbell

04.09.09

Something dark is about in our souls. We wander aside and run like chickens with empty heads from snakes in dusty roads to thorns and hornets on either side. Our heart will not rest, but flees in terror ... in the wrong direction. The fire that blazes is cold and dark like the longest night. But then, turning we are stopped and flattened. Our eyes rise to the hill and at just that moment the morning sun breaks in reds and pinks, pouring its light down on us tiny things ... and suddenly the snakes are the ones in terror and we are in presence and heat. We swim in morning glory and long for this dawning to destroy forever the sleepless nights. It would seem our brains are filled with this light as long as we walk its way. The sun is coming down the hill to meet us and does meet us (though not in its fullness) and we are revived. We see the path before us and we must focus on our journey. We must walk and not falter. This path seems long and other yellow pilgrims are coming alongside. There are some who are teetering, there are some afraid and shuddering. We must speak and walk, we must carry each other as much as words and friendship can ... and we must all walk this path.

God, may your glory inspire our feathered brains with the dawning of the morning sun, with the reds and pinks and golds of glorious morn, still distant, but coming closer.
(Jason Campbell. Lent 2007)

Call Your servant to illumination;
And grant me the grace of baptism.
Put off from me the old man and renew me unto life everlasting.
And fill me with the power of the Holy Spirit,
In the unity of Jesus Christ,
That I may be a child of Your Kingdom;
Through the good will and grace of Your only-begotten Son,
With whom you are blessed, together with Your Most Holy,
And Good, and Life-Giving Spirit;
Now and ever, and unto ages of ages. Amen.

Wednesday of Holy Week by Jason Campbell

04.08.09

"It is not as individuals that we pass through the Paschal mystery year by year but as a community of faith. Looking at the few drops in my cup -- which is all I can gather of the truth of God-with-us suffering, dying, and rising -- should make me think of all that my co-believers, my brothers and sisters throughout the world are gathering. By myself I know so little; together we know so much of Christ. The knowledge of God which the spirit imparts is a corporate knowledge. What I myself do not yet know of the divine power and wisdom in the folly of the Cross, my sisters and brothers the world over are coming to know in the crucibles of suffering. Mysteriously, through the communion of the Holy Spirit, I am entitled to claim as mine what they through their suffering and faith have brought up from the depths of their experience. God forbid then that I should treat Holy Week as the backdrop for private musings about my life with Christ. Of all times this is when I should know myself a pilgrim amongst pilgrims, a limb of the Body, and open my heart to those countless believers to whom the Spirit has and is revealing through pain and prayer what 'No eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man conceived, what God has prepared for those who love him.' (1 Cor. 2:9). What I so far have been allowed to know of Christ crucified and risen is only a trace of what we have known and are coming to know together as a Church. Just now I need to worship the Spirit and give thanks for all the truth into which my brothers and sisters the world over have been entering at the same time; what a vast ocean of experience of God, what depths have been sounded! In the Spirit this is a single great movement of experienced revelation, and my own steps, small as they are, are a part of it." (Martin L. Smith. A Season for the Spirit.)

Together we are walking through this holy week. Spend time reading the accounts of this week, the accounts of his trial and crucifixion. Tomorrow will be the day of the last supper and on Friday will be the day we remember the cross.

A NIGHT LITANY

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.
O God, our Father, graciously hear us.

We plead before Thee the Sacred Heart of Jesus, for all tonight who stand in most need of Thy merciful love and protection.

On souls beset by temptation,
Have mercy.
On those who are in deadly sin,
Have mercy.
On those who are given up to worldliness, and forgetful of Thee,
Have mercy.
On those who at this moment are in danger of losing Thee forever,
Have mercy.

By Thine agony,
Save them, Jesus.

Those who are tempting others,
Convert to Thy love.

On those carrying on wicked trades, and profiting by sin,
Have mercy.
On those indulging in sinful amusements,
Have mercy.
On all frequenting haunts of sin,
Have mercy.
On all who are imperiling their souls by luxury and self-indulgence,
Have mercy.

By Thy scourging,
Save them, Jesus.

On all who are out tonight; the homeless, the weary, the starving, the suicide, the intemperate,
Have mercy.
On those who are out for sin,
Have mercy.

To those who are out to rescue others,
Grant help and protection.

For those who work at night; the police, railwaymen, firemen; those employed in hazardous occupations; those engaged on the stage; soldiers, sailors, chauffeurs, aviators; watchmen on duty; editors and journalists,
Let Thy Presence be with them; by Thy night watching, save them, Jesus.

For the sick and suffering, and all who are enduring any agony of body or mind,
Grant them comfort, peace, and consolation.

For all undergoing medical operations,
Strengthen them, Jesus, and help them in body and soul.

For the sleepless and the lonely,
Be near them.

For those in anxiety, nervous or mental distress,
Calm them.

For the insane,
Keep them in Thy power.

For night nurses,
Give faithfulness and sympathy.

For priests and doctors called out this night,
Encourage and reward them.

By Thy crown of thorns,
Deliver them, Jesus.

For those who this night must suffer bereavement,
Visit and sustain them.

For those for whom this will be their last night on earth,
Deepen their contrition and receive their souls.

For dying priests, religious, and all communicants,
Have mercy upon them and receive them to Thyself, Jesus.

For ourselves in our last hour,
Grant the pardon of our sins, negligences, and ignorances.

By Thy holy death,
Deliver us, Jesus.

On behalf of those who have said no prayers today, let us say:

Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy Kingdom come, thy will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us. Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom, and the power and the glory forever and ever, Amen.

Tuesday of Holy Week by Jason Campbell

04.07.09

In answer to ugliness and beauty, Christ, the shining face of God, looks down upon us bleeding and marred with mercy upon his lips while we continue in all our meanness and ugliness. This idea of mercy bleeding enthroned between heaven and earth, between God and man, just before he disappears from sight, swallowed up by the ultimate enemy of Creation ... the dread beast, the aghast horror that is sins culmination. "No one is so fierce that he dares to stir him up." (Job 41) And this stone-hearted beast--who conquers king and peasent, scribe and begger--Death, seems to conquer and the sun cannot bear to watch.

But Christ does conquer and through the power of the Spirit rises to eternal life and opens back the promise of redemption.

Yet, we are in Lent and Lent's culmination. It is a time to touch the tensions that remain with us ... Christ rose from the dead, but he has not come again. He began a work and that work is poured out in our hearts, but we feel the tension of his work, his victory in our own bodies and in the world around us.

Bonhoeffer, among other things would not deny his Jewish brothers in the faith and even secretly brought them out of Germany, he spoke out against Hitler and the German Church who joined in with the Riech ... he was ultimately hung by an order from Hitler just before the American troops broke through. He is a man who knew the tension of the world and in his letter reflecting on Christ and Christianity written to his best friend he says:

“The Christian has no last line of escape available from earthly tasks and difficulties into the eternal, but, like Christ himself he must drink the earthly cup to the dregs, and only in his doing so is the crucified and risen Lord with him, and he crucified and risen with Christ. This world must not be prematurely written off; in this the Old and New Testaments are at one.” (Letters 336-337)

Christianity is not about escape from this life, but the bearing of Christ, being full of the Holy Spirit in the midst of this hard and torn place. And perhaps in every moment where we look down upon our world, to do so with a head like Jeremiah (Jer. 9) and the words of Christ upon our lips: "Lord have mercy."

Jesus, betrayed with a kiss,
Have mercy upon us.
Jesus, judged worthy of death,
Have mercy upon us.
Jesus, spit upon, blindfolded, and struck with blows
Have mercy upon us.
Jesus, bruised and scourged for our iniquities,
Have mercy upon us.
Jesus, laden with the Cross and led to Calvery
Have mercy upon us.
Jesus, nailed to the Cross,
Have mercy upon us.
Jesus, raised up on the Cross,
Have mercy upon us.
Jesus, bearing our sins in your own body on the tree,
Have mercy upon us.
Jesus, by whose stripes we are healed,
Have mercy upon us.

Monday of Holy Week by Jason Campbell

04.06.09

This is a long reflection from Austin Farrar from his chapter titled: "I Believe in Jesus Christ our Lord who was crucified." On Monday morning, as Jesus was leaving Bethany, he looked for figs on a fig tree by the road. Finding none, he cursed it to remain fruitless forever, to whither and die away (Mark 11:12-14) ...

"The Roman police nailed up human enemies, and nailed them up alive. They would still be good propaganda when they were dead and cold, but even better were the twelve or so hours during which, with luck, they might live in agony on the cross, so that men might point at them, and say, 'Look, this is--not this was, but this is--the disturber of the peace; this is the enemy of mankind. Curse him--he cannot hurt you; throw filth at him--he cannot shoot back; and praise our lord the Emperor, who tramples all our enemies under his feet; thank the army, which gives us everlasting peace.'

So there Jesus hangs--Jesus, the enemy of mankind; Jesus the ruin of our quiet. We should not hear that frightening voice any more; that voice more destructive than armed force. To get him hanged, they said he had threatened to pull down the Temple. But that was just to get him hanged. He did not go about things that way. If he had really pulled the Temple down, we would soon have had it up again; but if we had listened to that voice much longer, and felt those eyes upon us, our confidence would have broken beyond repair. The Temple would have been nothing--the whole world we believed in came crashing round our ears while he spoke. We believed in this country of ours--call it Judea, call it England [call it America]--as the center of a spiritual civilization; he talked it into a dry husk, which the wind would presently carry away ...

Was this world of ours to end, or was Jesus to be stopped? Who could hesitate for a moment? It is expedient that one man should die for the people, and that the whole nation perish not ... Jesus is our enemy. He hurts like conscience, but beyond our power to heal. Conscience tells us the faults we have learnt to recognize; Jesus lets in all our neglected corners the insupportable light of heaven. Conscience tells us to live more carefully our safe, reassuring, worldly life; Jesus opens up those chilly horizons beyond our death, when we shall be stripped of acheivements, hobbies, comforts, and possessions, and left with nothing to live upon, but love of God and man. Perhaps it was not clever, after all, to put Jesus on the cross. We wanted to silence his warnings about death; we have put him up to die in front of our faces, and it makes us think that we shall die soon. Better turn our heads away, and go back to the glow of our firesides; where we can put food into our mouths and entertainment before our eyes, and fill our lungs with life. Jesus is the voice of death; let us stop our ears; death is the one enemy we cannot meet...

[Now Jesus speaking]: "The proud men have hung me up, still breathing, between the earth and sky. This is their cunning, their art of propaganda, to nail up a living placard, the enemy of mankind ...

Speaking of someone's opposition to our schemes, we say lightheartedly: 'I'll soon fix him, never you worry.' Jesus had been a trouble to the priests, but now Pilate had fixed him for them, so they did not need to worry. He could not stir a finger to trouble them any more. If he moved an inch it was an agony. This was the sting of crucifixion, that you had them fixed."

[Then he falls into a contemplation of his pierced hands]: "Those hands had not been sparing of their healing touch; and yet Jesus did not come to heal the body; had he been free, he would not, perhaps, have sought out the sick. Those hands, in a gesture of force, had thrown the market out of the Temple. The mere demonstration was enough; if they had been free, they would not have armed themselves for revolt. These hands, only yesterday---was it yesterday? How long ago it seemed! these hands, these very hands, had given away the body and blood of Jesus to his friends in bread and wine. Now, they might as well stay where they were, nailed to the beam. For a man who has given his body and blood away has no business left in this world, but to die; to die and make good his bequest." (Lord I Believe. Austin Farrer. 1958).

"O Jesus! nailed to the cross, fasten our hearts there also, that they may be united to thee until death shall strike us with its fatal blow, and with our last breath we shall yield up our souls to thee." (Saint Augustine's Prayer Book. 1967)